“I was so confused and insecure. Because I thought I was beautiful. So many people told me I was beautiful. Who am I? I feel like a vase shattered across the ground, and left there in the alleyway. A chandelier that was cut from the ceiling, and then all the people left the house. I can’t imagine on this day, what it would feel like to recover. Am I allowed to be this sad? Am I allowed to lay on the ground in a heap and wail? I want to have hands again, and legs. I want to smile. I want to believe that I can. But again, I want to be sad for the rest of time. I want to wear my sadness in long strands. I want to lay on the ocean floor and weep stalactites. For a hundred years. A tree has fallen onto my chest. The sky is spinning, and it won’t slow down. I don’t want to feel any of this.” A excerpt of an untitled essay from NIGHTBIRDE The NIGHTBIRDE book “Poems for the dark” should be available for presale soon. We hope Jane’s words make you all feel less alone in your human experience. Photo by Jacqueline Day #nightbirde #poetry #essay #poem #nightbird #agt #itsOk #inspire #hope #faith #cancerJourney

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"I was overwhelmed with confusion and insecurity because, in my eyes, I was beautiful. Numerous individuals had assured me of my beauty.
Who am I, really? It feels as though I have become a shattered vase scattered across the ground, abandoned in an alley. I am like a chandelier forcefully detached from the ceiling, abandoned by the people who once filled the house.
Today, the thought of recovering seems unimaginable.
Am I permitted to feel this profound sorrow? Can I lay on the ground, crumpled and sobbing?

I long to have hands and legs once more. I yearn to smile, to believe that I still can.
Yet, a part of me wishes to embrace eternal sadness. I want to wear my sorrow like long strands of hair. I aspire to lie on the ocean floor, shedding tears that form stalactites for a hundred years.
A tree has collapsed onto my chest. The sky spins relentlessly, refusing to slow down. I wish to be free from feeling any of this pain."

An excerpt from an untitled essay by NIGHTBIRDE.
The book "Poems for the Dark" by NIGHTBIRDE will soon be available for presale.

We hope Jane's words bring solace and shared humanity to all readers.
Photo by Jacqueline Day
#nightbirde #poetry #essay #poem #nightbird #agt #itsOk #inspire #hope #faith #cancerJourney